[[*Endless Road_______Endless Journey]]*

Monday, December 17, 2007

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If you ask me, it is so much better to be physically tired than mentally tired.

Every single thing is starting to make me so weary. Work, studies, ming boggling issues...

It seems pretty strange, but most of the time spent in the Army seems to be the least stress-free.

I do miss the times when everyone would sit together in the bunk or office and just talked about anything and everything till late. One vivid memory was there was once Kah Sheng, Kok Chuan, Weiliang and I sat together and chit chatted until almost 3am, when we had to get ready by 7am for a morning run.

Work can get really boring when everyone is immersed in their work, wanting to finish everything and go home on time. Interaction seems to be a bare minimum, only used when work matters are concerned.

I don't know, but maybe I am afraid of loneliness sometimes. Much as I can't bring myself to admit that. The moments of solitude allows me to think about a lot of stuff, but not being able to find the right person to convey some thoughts and/or feelings can make one feel really empty.

I must be the biggest oxymoron around the people I know. I have friends often coming to me, asking for opinions on stuff. But yet, when faced with similar situations, I can never bring myself to do exactly the same opinion that I gave them.

I preach to others the importance of staying optimistic, on how looking at the better side of things can make life much happie. Yet, almost everything that I do smacks of pessimism.

I thought of telling them they are the most important friends in my life. I wanted to tell her how she seems to make my life alive. But things like that are never likely to come out from my mouth.

Isn't it weird to lead a life like that? Making everything seem difficult.

Maybe that's why I feel so tired.

Oh well...I guess all I need now is sleep. It helps to drain the thoughts. And the heavy head is close to driving me nuts.

perspective. it is so bloody hard to define this word.

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|11:03 pm|