[[*Endless Road_______Endless Journey]]*

Thursday, November 30, 2006

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I've been laughing at this over and over again. Oh my...even Nicholas Tse was left in stitches.

Her voice is just too damn cute lah. So much so that you can hardly scold her for saying that foul Cantonese phrase.

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Anyway, I'm on leave. Yes, finally. Will be off from work for 7 working days. Fantastic, isn't it? But the more I look at the training schedule for my upcoming course, the more I'm dreading it. It really is gonna be a hell of a ride for the first 6 weeks. Kinda makes me wonder how am I going to survive the whole thing. I hope I do, and I hope I'll be able to find ways to survive quickly. Just wanna get it over and done with.

In the meantime, I'll just enjoy this break while I can. Happy days never seem to last long, don't they?

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|11:42 am|

Tuesday, November 21, 2006

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Sometimes, can you really blame NSFs for hating NS?

I mean, when you have to bear the brunt of mistakes you never made...

When you had to surrender your privileges in order to appease someone else...

When you have a superior who accuses you of not trying hard enough even though you did...

Ask yourself this: would you take pleasure when someone does something for you not out of willingness but out of, perhaps, fear or a lack of a choice to say no?

Maybe some power-loving egomaniacs do. But I certainly don't.

Really, some people do not understand the epitome of leadership and command. It is not an authority for you to mouth off someone just because you are pissed off, not for you to "arrow" someone to do your work because you can't quite be bothered to do it.

It is the ability to effectively guide people under you to the correct path of thought and conduct. The ability to gain trust based on what you could and should do. The ability to earn respect, so much so that if one day should you be on the battlefield with your men, they would use their bodies as shields to safekeep your life.

It is just so sad. Somehow I could feel the anguish of a man wrongly accused of a crime he never committed. The feeling of a sacrificial lamb.

And people should just learn not to compare. Do you ever compare the job scopes of, say, a doctor and an engineer? No? So that's why you also do not compare the perks and stress each job brings, isn't that so?

10 more months to go. Damn, days never seemed to pass by as slowly as of late...

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|9:07 pm|

Monday, November 20, 2006

[[Just Thinking...]]

I often ponder such a question:

Is it better to wait for things to happen, or is it better to make things happen.

And I just wondered about that a few moments, with an answer proving inconclusive until now.

Maybe, just maybe...

Making things happen seems a slightly better option. Because I was hoping and waiting for something to happen. In the end, that thing just went *poof* and disappeared.

So yeah, perhaps next time I should just make things happen.

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|10:08 pm|

Monday, November 13, 2006

[[GST increasing]]

Have you heard the news?

Yes, our dearest PM had just mentioned the likelihood of GST increasing a "mere" 2%.

Wow, 7% GST. The pinch don't really set in when you buy something that cost, probably a dollar. But when purchase goods by the hundreds, well...

An increase in GST should symbolise that our society has moved on. And by that, I mean for the better. So, how come, then, do I not feel that my life (or my pay, more importantly) has positively moved on?

Hmm...maybe that's because I'm bloody serving the army. Oh well...

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|10:36 pm|

Sunday, November 12, 2006

[[Retail Therapy]]

Yesterday I went out shopping for a pair of new speakers for my computer.

Looking around various shops, I found quite a number of options from which I could choose from. Until...

I passed by a handphone shop.

But hey, what has it got to do with computer speakers?

Because I saw a promotion for this weekend! A Sony Ericsson K800i going only for $298 with a sign up for 2 years!

It really got me deliberating for quite some time. I liked the phone from the first time I set my eyes on it. A few weeks ago, SingTel's hello! shops at selling it at $368 for a 2-year sign up. Now it's going only at $298!

So yeah, I guess you know that in the end, I did get the phone. It burnt a little hole in my wallet, but it'll be pretty fine if I'm frugal for this month.

What about the speakers, you ask.

I did get a pair at $14, but somehow it doesn't quite work with my computer. Really strange, the only online helpdesk suggested it could be due to too many appliances sharing a similar power point. But damn, there's only this 1 power point near my computer.

Oh well, maybe I should just get another 1 soon.

I love my new phone though. Gonna take a lot of pictures real soon.

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|5:08 pm|

Friday, November 10, 2006

[[this strange feeling]]

Ever had the feeling whereby throughout the whole day you're only looking forward to doing that one single thing?

And that thought hogs your mind so bad that it might drive you bonkers anytime?

Well, I...........

Have not, actually.

I wouldn't even say what I'm feeling now is even close to that point. Maybe just that little which is about enough to make the heart itch.

The feeling's so bloody strange, seemingly telling me that perhaps, just perhaps........

But it's just so surreal. So intimidating. So very unreal.

I just hate to have this feeling again.

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|10:50 pm|

Wednesday, November 08, 2006

[[Lull Period!!]]

After the conclusion of the last Stage 1 evaluation for this year, it is finally here!!

Yes, the time of the year when every NSF in the office is looking forward to. Lull period!!

But it's kinda sad that I only get to enjoy a single month of it before I go for course. Really damn sad man, that 8 weeks of hell...

And it's also sad that I won't get to see both Vinson and Suhan ORD.

I guess I'll just make the best out of this single month because it will definitely fly by in no time. Trust me, pretty soon you'll see be complaining about the Recce course.

Damn, I need some sleep. And I am just so craving for a tom yam flavour cup noodle. This irritating nose of mine can't stop sniffing...

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|10:57 pm|

Friday, November 03, 2006

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I'm almost bored out of my wits, on a Friday night, no less.

Actually, I'm that freaking tired, so much so that I might just KO the moment I hit the sack. But I can't coax myself to go to bed yet. For now, at least.

On a slightly happier note, there's only 1 more Stage 1 Evaluation left for this year, and it's gonna be next week. I just can't wait to see the end of next week. And pay day is next Friday too! It couldn't feel better than that, eh?

But I'm not really looking forward so much for my Recce course. Damn it's gonna be one hell of a tough ride for 8 weeks. And given my physical shape (which is, well, a little round) now, I really wonder if I can survive the full package. No choice, have to find any means I can to eke out ways to survive the bloody course.

The only thing I'm looking forward is the pay rise after the course. Maybe a little to the promotion, but then again, to take up more responsibilities for only a $200 increase in pay...hmm, not really worth it.

But I'm hard up!! What to do? So many things to buy, so little credit. And there are the Taiwan trips for next year. Need money to spend during R&R. Plus my target to go to Korea. A little dreamy, but you gotta have to set a target to start with, right?

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|11:07 pm|

Wednesday, November 01, 2006

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I'm feeling weird all over.

Why? Because I suddenly wished to tell you I miss you.

But I just can't. Weird huh? Cause I don't know why I can't.

If only you knew. And feel the same way too...

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|11:42 pm|