[[*Endless Road_______Endless Journey]]*

Wednesday, February 23, 2005

[[The Last Chapter VII]]

It has almost been a year since Jaime got to know Celine. Nine months in fact. Never had Jaime incurred a higher SMS usage than he did in the last six months. Time flies when you're having fun, they say. For Jaime, time couldn't have flown by more quickly than before.

It had become a habit for Jaime to see Celine in school almost everyday and to message her, whether through SMS or online chatting. Actually, it had become an essential routine in his life. Just like how a heroin addict is addicted to the drug.

However, Jaime still couldn't muster enough courage to talk to her face-to-face in school often. Everytime he sees her in school, his mind froze. His brain and heart wouldn't cooperate with each other, and the words failed to come out from his mouth. It was something that never happened to him before. Not with all the other girls that he knew.

For the first time in his life, Jaime knew that he had fallen. Fallen for Celine. Fallen in love. So deep that he knew it would not happen again in his life with another girl. Not with his ex-girlfriends. Not with any other girls he might know in future. Certainly not with any of his female friends.

But questions were always running through his mind. Am I good enough for her? How does she feel about me? Would there be a chance for us to be together? What would happen if we got together and then split up?

Each and every of these questions left Jaime less confident than ever before. He was so afraid of losing Celine, even as a friend.

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"Hi there...will you be free after test next Saturday? Wanna ask if you're free to go out for lunch..."

Finally, Jaime was satisfied with the message. He had typed almost ten messages, trying to sound as best he could. It might not had mattered so much, but to Jaime, everything he said had to sound proper. He was perhaps a little too conscious.

One minute. Two already gone. Jaime stared at his handphone with excitement and anticipation. He had long began to start imagining how everything would go next week...

"Beep...beep..."

Though Jaime always try to respond as fast as he could to any message he received, he couldn't be faster than he was when replying to a particular someone.

"Yup, I think I will be. Why ask me out all of a sudden?"

"Hmm...my mum gave me a reward for doing well in a test, so wanna buy you lunch?"

It was an obvious lie, and she might just see through it. But Jaime thought it was a bad idea to ask people out for no reason. He didn't know how to tell her why he wanted to ask her out. At least that excuse sounded logical.

"I see. So nice of your mum. Tell me more when you decided where to go?"

For the rest of the day, Jaime couldn't stop smiling. How he wished for the next weekend to come quickly. He had never looked forward to a day more than this.

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*one sweet day*

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|8:58 pm|