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Saturday, November 27, 2004

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Quite a few days since I last blogged. Realised I haven't been blogging so much lately as I used to in the past. Well...there are quite a few reasons (not excuses). Sometimes too busy, sometimes too tired, sometimes too caught up with playing Maple Story...sometimes...
Anywayz it's been a really long week. And I'm finally into the weekend. Let's pick up from where I last ended off. Tuesday and Wednesday went back to school for a studio production course. The course was wonderful. Interesting, fun...I learnt a lot from the course. From directing to cameraman to floor manager...so many people are actually needed for a simple production. No wonder they say importing foreign programmes are always cheaper than producing your own. The only disappointing part was the attendance. So many signed up, so few turned up. What a waste. And you people who didn't turn up...shoot yourself. Mr. Loh had to specially arrange this for you and that's the thanks he got. Ungrateful idiots.
Moving on, it's Thursday. Half good, half bad. Good because I had lunch with her and 2 other female classmates. Bad because firstly, I was already having an upset stomach from yesterday and it became worse. Then waited for more than hour after work for my father to pick me up to go Downtown East where my family was having a chalet. In the end he decided it was too troublesome. Got me so pissed that I went home. And almost got into a stampede at Boon Lay MRT station. Was travelling down the escalator when this dumb woman in front of me...her daughter had fell at the foot of the escalator. Instead of quickly pulling her daughter out of harm's way, she dilly-dallied, "oblivious" to the fact that behind her was an escalator packed full with people. I tried to get out of the way (cos I don't wanna stamp on the woman and her daughter) but instead "crashed" into the uncle next to me. And quite a few people behind followed suit. Damn...it scared the hell out of that little girl. What a stupid mother. If I had any ounce of energy left in me I would have screamed my head off at her.
Friday was most lax. Cos was on MC (actually I didn't get 1), so rested at home. The wait at the darn polyclinic was so freaking long. It took me more than an hour for my turn. And you wonder why polyclinics are cheaper than private ones. Actually the difference is like $5? I wonder why I was waiting for so long too. At night went to Downtown East for the chalet. Helped out with the BBQ, played some volleyball and learnt how to skateboard. Or rather, that thing is called a long board, as my sis' boyfriend put it. Bowling was next, and I had a horrible and forgettable 1st game. 60+ pinfalls. I haven't had such a bad game for a long time. The 2nd game was more like me. 163 pinfalls.
Well well...it seems like I have had quite an eventful week huh? Yeah...gotta admit there were so much to do and seemingly so little time. But still, there's a feeling of emptiness within me. Hardly talked to her for the whole of this week. Been trying real hard not to unnecessarily contact her or anything. But each time, it's always a battle within myself. I hate this. Absolutely hate this. I miss her. A pretty whole lot. But I really don't know what to do...
These 2 verses from Chicago's "Look Away" has been running in my head for a long time...

Verse 1
When you called me up this morning, told me about the new love you've found...
I said I was happy for you...
I'm really happy for you...

Verse 2
And if you see me walking by, and the tears are in my eyes...
Look away...baby look away.
And if we meet on the street someday, and I don't know what to say...
Look away...baby look away.
Don't look at me...I don't want you to see me this way...

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