[[*Endless Road_______Endless Journey]]*

Saturday, October 16, 2004

[[Over]]

End of Friday and the beginning of the most dreaded Saturday of my life. Yeah...school has now unofficially ended. Though there are still presentations, a CA and another project submission next week, there's pretty nothing much. It happens to be study week, and since there are no more exams for me, school has sort of ended.
Really dread the coming of this Saturday. End of the school semester. Meaning I won't be able to see her in school anymore. It really does seem that it's really over...both of us. Even when we didn't have a beginning to start with. Like what she said, it feels like a break-up. But it's even worse. We had no beginning, just an ending.
Telling me to forget her...easier said than done. I don't know, but if it hurts her, like she said, then why force this ending? For my own good? That we are doing this for me? Are you sure this is the best solution for me? So what if I could forget you? Will I be better off?
I don't expect much. Juz don't treat me with this cold shoulder. That we don't seem to know each other anymore. That we can't even be friends. That we can't chat like how we did in the past. It hurts even more. Don't you know? Elva had a song "Zui Shou Xi De Mo Shen Ren". Are we meant to be? To be 2 persons who seem to know each other so well but are strangers?
Maybe 1 day I would eventually forget you. Maybe that day might never come. Even if we are not fated to be together, being juz friends won't hurt. Even if you chose to never give us a chance, even if you chose to give that chance to someone else. I'll never blame nor hate you. I'll only wish and pray for you to be happy like you'll always do. And be there for you when you have problems, when you need a shoulder to cry on. Is that too much to ask for...

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|1:13 am|